I am finally making an attempt to join the blogging world again. I finally realize the value of having a space to vent and express my life in written form. I woke up this morning thinking "I feel like I am stuck and unable to move forward, yet at the same time I feel life spiraling out of control around me." I think that is a sign. Perhaps I needed it to have some reflective time. I feel so many demands on my time, from being a mom to four needy children, to performing a balancing act with work and daycare, and then there are just the day to day operations here at home. How does any person handle this many things all at the same time?
Today is day 3 of the kids gone at school and I am already feeling the pressure of occuping Sofi all day long. If I wasn't giving her direct attention today, she was all over me. I feel like I have been a plucked turkey, trampoline, jungle gym, horse, and servant in only a couple hours. I think I have forgotten how to relax. There is always that project in the back of my mind, those stacks of papers that I need to work on, organization for my kids that needs to take place, shopping needing done or dishes to wash. The dogs stare at me with these sad eyes. There are 100 apples on the ground in the back yard and the front yard is half dead from lack of watering. I think I have washed the load of laundry in the washing machine 3 times already; it never seems to make it to the dryer.
I feel like I am in a cartoon; suspended in mid-air while life is going on around me. Any minute I will drop.
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